feet in italy, heart in oklahoma

 As a military spouse you know the feeling of homesick.  

It's a common feeling that you often recognize 

take a deep breath 

and 

swallow the pain 

and continue with your day.

 However 

this a different feeling. 

This week

 my home state was devastate by a tornado. 

This  is a feeling of loss, 

helplessness, 

and sadness.

 It's a pain that cannot be swallowed. 

In a few short days I will be coming home 

and 

I fear seeing the devastation 

and 

feeling the heartbreak of a state. 

  Places that once held memories are now simply a pile of rubble. 

Many of my friends lost their homes,

 lost years of memories, 

and hard work. 

I have friends that were at work and lost their vehicles.

 All these are material possessions 

however 

even material possessions hold memories and heart felt value.  

My heart aches for the children in the elementary schools

 and 

the ones who lost their home. 

Their simple innocent minds 

are forced to understand this complex thing we call Mother Nature 

that even adults sometimes can't fathom.

I lift you up oklahoma in prayer and thought.  

My hands feel tied, my heart is breaking, and I want to be with you.   

I will pray for those who have lost whether it be life or material possessions.

 I will pray for the children

 that they find peace and consistency in the chaos. 

 For the parents 

who area forced to explain this devastation to the children, 

I pray you God gives you wisdom and words to heal your child's heart.

 For the rescue workers, the volunteers, the healthcare workers, 

I pray your hands work swiftly 

and 

that you know the value of your deeds.  

Oklahoma I pray for you. 

This morning my husband summed it up perfectly, "Ok, tornado you messed with Oklahoma.  

But we've been here before. 

we've rebuilt. 

we are pretty resilient" 

my feet are in italy

but my heart is in

oklahoma