a mother's day letter to my daughter

my sweet emerson,

it is my second mother's day as your mother

but 

the first full year i have been your mother

so 
to me

it's almost like my first mother's day

this year has flown by

and 

not a day goes by that

 i don't wish i could pause time

and 

live the day

over and over

mother's day is to celebrate mother's

but 

my sweet daughter

it is because of you

that 

i am the mother i am

every day

i try harder and harder

to be the mother you deserve

you have such a pure heart

loving all

laughing often

enjoying life

and 

i try every day 

to have your heart

in the trying moments

when my nicely cleaned floor

is 

quickly filled with toys

i remind myself

that this too shall pass

 and 

i will desire a floor filled with toys again

when you pull at my leg

saying so sweetly 

"up"

and 

i burn the dinner 

because i am holding you

i do not mind

for one day 

i will cook a gourmet dinner

look down 

and you will not be there

my television shows 

have now given way

to sesame street

dora

and 

bubble guppies

my books

are gathering dust

while

i read 

"goodnight moon"

"barnyard dance"

and 

your favorite

"polar bear polar bear what do you hear" 

i know that in time

i will read my books again

and

wish for a reason to dust off yours

one day 

my sweet daughter

not so far away

i will not hold you

i will not nurse you

i will not be your source of comfort

or 

the one who you babble all your new exciting news to

and 

while i will cherish

how my role 

as your mother 

has evolved

today

i wish to hit pause

to live in the moment

and 

to say 

thank you 

for letting me be your mommy

you are the best mothers day gift

i could ever have 

i love you much