Sunday, May 12, 2013

a mother's day letter to my daughter

my sweet emerson,
it is my second mother's day as your mother
but 
the first full year i have been your mother
so 
to me
it's almost like my first mother's day
this year has flown by
and 
not a day goes by that
 i don't wish i could pause time
and 
live the day
over and over
mother's day is to celebrate mother's
but 
my sweet daughter
it is because of you
that 
i am the mother i am
every day
i try harder and harder
to be the mother you deserve
you have such a pure heart
loving all
laughing often
enjoying life
and 
i try every day 
to have your heart
in the trying moments
when my nicely cleaned floor
is 
quickly filled with toys
i remind myself
that this too shall pass
 and 
i will desire a floor filled with toys again
when you pull at my leg
saying so sweetly 
"up"
and 
i burn the dinner 
because i am holding you
i do not mind
for one day 
i will cook a gourmet dinner
look down 
and you will not be there
my television shows 
have now given way
to sesame street
dora
and 
bubble guppies
my books
are gathering dust
while
i read 
"goodnight moon"
"barnyard dance"
and 
your favorite
"polar bear polar bear what do you hear" 
i know that in time
i will read my books again
and
wish for a reason to dust off yours
one day 
my sweet daughter
not so far away
i will not hold you
i will not nurse you
i will not be your source of comfort
or 
the one who you babble all your new exciting news to
and 
while i will cherish
how my role 
as your mother 
has evolved
today
i wish to hit pause
to live in the moment
and 
to say 
thank you 
for letting me be your mommy
you are the best mothers day gift
i could ever have 
i love you much


2 comments:

  1. Love this! You're a great momma!

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  2. Aw, this is terribly sweet! I think she'll quite enjoy reading this when she is older <3

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